Saturday, April 19, 2008 @ 9:03 AM
procastination
i guess i am rather lazy to blog about anything haha
ok.
lets talk about TODAY!
ermm woke up at 8.30am
then did LOADS of homework to see if my brains are smart or no
well, i am not smart at all
stupid math questions which made always feel so stupid and demoralised
don't know.
feel quite numb to not knowing how to do alrd
i was really quite HARD on myself for being unable to solve some questions
i would cry til the middle of the night till i gets it.
GOSH! thats like so overreacting! even if its only ONE question on the ws (that was in pri sch )
i would like err. whine and cry over ONE question
how dumb and overreacting
i don't know but as years pass, i seem to get more and more 'bo chap' about being unable to solve questions
liker example, i totally HATE people who copy homework. i find them useless, dumb, and all kinds of mean stuff. i would always STRIVE to do all by myself :D
but i am 'that' knid now.
when i can't do, aiyah. copy la!
thats a damn wrong attitude
though u will give urself ultimate stress but it really feels great when you are able to do!
hmmm okokok
claire and i went shopping at AMK hub :)
our first time going shopping with just the both of us except after school sometimes.
hmm
finally gotten what i always want.
i am thinking of doing smth like....... spend within $10 in the next week.
possible? i think can la.
aiyah pri one my allowance was $1 a day
i thought it felt really great when you have ONE DOLLAR in your pink little wallet :)
haha.
then err... eh quite fun leh. like there is some challenge or goal in your boring life----spend only $10 a week!!!
currently i feel so damn lost.
i don't have a goal or wad.
i am like 'wandering' haha
okok. $10 bucks in one week seems interesting!
i have a 'challenge' now!
work hard! me!
Saturday, April 12, 2008 @ 8:32 AM
cello day!
to tan kai yun though you lost then cannot go states to competition oso nvm la. i know you ya la tried your best in the arts and all when you "realised" your talents in the arts. i must say ur pri sku art suck WAHAHA
but i think u succeeded to many times so aiyah lose 1 time nvm one la
haha if me i lose nvm coz i have never won like so much like you in my life WAHAHA
so, losing another time doesnt matter that much to me!
shi bai nai cheng gong zhi mu
failure is success's mummy
-.-
okook
anyway we had a super cello DAY!
haha
nola
not really that fun as the other time at the beach
hmm
haha but still ok! i cant believe i racked my brains to think of such a thing lor
as in, me, as a stupid perfectionist am i asking to much in success??
dont know
i dont really find it satisfying
though i really racked my brains, walked lots of places to check prices and all
but critics.... nvm
dont feel good.
i just seem to be damn wad lor this year
wads wrong with my "emotion immune system"
hello-o? wads wrong wif you?
why you so wad?! crying over the slightest things on plant earth
.....
i guess this is going to go on for quite long...
anything!
every picture tells a thousand words so here you go..
BAHH
dont feel like doing anything. the entire planet just SUCK!
but i think u succeeded to many times so aiyah lose 1 time nvm one la
haha if me i lose nvm coz i have never won like so much like you in my life WAHAHA
so, losing another time doesnt matter that much to me!
shi bai nai cheng gong zhi mu
failure is success's mummy
-.-
okook
anyway we had a super cello DAY!
haha
nola
not really that fun as the other time at the beach
hmm
haha but still ok! i cant believe i racked my brains to think of such a thing lor
as in, me, as a stupid perfectionist am i asking to much in success??
dont know
i dont really find it satisfying
though i really racked my brains, walked lots of places to check prices and all
but critics.... nvm
dont feel good.
i just seem to be damn wad lor this year
wads wrong with my "emotion immune system"
hello-o? wads wrong wif you?
why you so wad?! crying over the slightest things on plant earth
.....
i guess this is going to go on for quite long...
anything!
every picture tells a thousand words so here you go..
BAHH
dont feel like doing anything. the entire planet just SUCK!
Friday, April 11, 2008 @ 8:27 AM
today
erm ok
i sort of finished mourning for the entire week
hmm
1) seniors leaving
2) dont really feel like talking and eating
3) how to face the bloody future
main 3 reasons
me myself dont really know why too
i suddenly realise kinder bueno is not great and nice after all
i find ferris wheel and carousel nice instead
super nice in fact
dont know
ferris wheel much better
proabably coz i really love sinagpore alot and that they build the singapore flyer that i can see frm my house the lift lobby. rather clearly. can see the cabins
can really see the things i really felt and all
wad i really wanted is ferris wheel? no. wad it represents. which i dont know
it has sort of the key to wad i wanted?
BAHH wad i talking?!
anw
i rushed back to the classroom aft the sc thing ended
wanted to have more time haha
rubbish
it wont make a difference at all.
ok then i realised. nothing
nothing.
dont know
rubbish blog post this is.
tmr would be a better day yuyun!
ok i am always telling myself this.
as if i did
anyway
i walked around the school the whole day
cameras, phones, taking the pictures of their seniors
haha cool!
all the ppl all like that haha
good that the government created this cca thing
Wednesday, April 09, 2008 @ 6:45 AM
:)
ok. zengmei is evil
tricked me n liying go wad interview
i tot is like ask us hmmmm wad do u think of the sec 3s or wadever
but is interview us.
scare me
haha. wad so secretive
BAHH!
huiyi is so bad la. anyhow answer me n liying surely die one
:(
i m so damn happy and like my mind xiang tong le
aft minghui say " i am going to buy choc"
though no link i dunno why i just sort of got REALLY HAPPY and all my troubles GONE!
haha kinder bueno is nice!
the sat celebration finally settled aft i say LOADS of things :)
relieved!
Monday, April 07, 2008 @ 5:41 AM
hmm
okay. there is really nothing to blog about.
i have decided i am going to be damn "emotionally unstable"
for the rest of the week.
don't ask me why
partially is for fun. DUH!
okay. for some serious reasons too. :)
i am sort of relieved after sorting out my thoughts till 5am on saturday night
i was really confused and my mind was really in a mess.
i think think think. did some writing of smth sweet :D then sorted out alrd
and went to sleep :)
ok. nice.
i just want loads of sweets!
yummy!
okay. craving for some now.
i m a little scared abt tmr
i admit i have a LITTLE stage fright
urgh
thats really bad for my lit!
ok... thats it.
not much to say
being "emotionally unstable" is FUN!
and interesting.... HEHE ;)
Friday, April 04, 2008 @ 10:53 PM
hmmm
i m happy i made laypeng love art!
whoo!
seriously people who hated art maybe is bcause of bloody teachers' attitude by forcing students to hand up work on time. art is have to FEEL~ then can draw marh. aiyah...
anw, anybody who hates art should go esplanade walk one round :D
claire rocks!
haha
feels great when u hug someone :)
Tuesday, April 01, 2008 @ 3:15 AM
family portraits
An oval frame
for the ovals of face and ears.
Smooth puff of hair
swept from the calm forehead.
Full gathers of blouse
spreading from the yoke.
The nose curls firmly, the strong chin is cleft.
Lips full, mouth slightly open,
white teeth rest on the lower lip
Her gaze isdirec, her brows level,
yet the eyes betray an asymmetry
which the high lace collar, the gold
watch on its light chain
cannot contain. It is a child's face,
plump, sensuous, awaiting experience;
naked over the soft fabric,
a brooch pinned through her throat.
She was a servan
in a big house, running up and downstairs,
hoping for letters from her distant family,
scribbling verses in an exercise book,
writing to her father in doggerel rhymes,
jotting down songs from music halls,
sketching her own rough drawings
at the ends of the watercolour books
her employers' children threw away.
Soon the would come, the sailor lover,
and take her to the strange countries
at which she looks in wonder.
They are alone here ,
three of them smiling in black and white.
No-one is smiling.
The children huddle in
on either side, strained and doubtful.
Their hair is longer
but hers has lost its fulness.
It is darker, firmer, moulded to the head.
She wears a heavy overdress
with narrow skirt and frog fastening.
On the edge of the chair
she perches uncomfortably
feet awkwardly cramped.
Still in the sombre face
the deep-set eyes hold their different angles;
one that looks directly at you,
the other gazing through you far away
to some quite different world.
Their mourning figures encode grief.
Whose death are we looking at?
She stares into the nineteen-twenties
holding those nervous daughters to her sde.
I feel my mother's tentative arm around me,
her left hand grasping mine.
chim lehh?
hahah
one my my sis the lit book.
walao the chin poems inside are soooo meaningful and lovable la
haha
i LOVE POETRY :D
nvm. rather sad today. okok la.
i m hating myself that i am a perfectionist?
coz i m like colouring my art the background
and like i shouldnt have coloured coz ugly?
if nev colour is nicer??
then i was damn sad and demoralised
D:
i just really want things to be as perfect as possible.
is it wrong?
gosh i wanna go round the world.
my wish since ermmm
pri TWO is to go round the world.
every little street, alley, town.... must have my footprints
i m serious.
i want
i must 'scrutinise' the entire earth.
though u might think i am mad,
when there is a will, there is a way :D
hope it is true!