haha tapestry was.... no comments haha
i was far too nervous to listen to other people. scores are my best buddy =)
very very nervous!
i was totally jumping and mumbling to myself to CALM DOWN haha
catherine too!
i was like tan yuyun you can do it!!
just play like no one is looking!!!
haha and la la la laqing wne qu the mistake i made i guess was to play re instead of ti
wrong ah wrong ah
haha
then i tried to smile!! :)
while playing
when play dont face black black =)
and whoo!!! shenghan shouted for me!
haha
and cello gotten really NICE and ENCOURAGING PRAISES like the swaying haha
dunno why.
the praises we got were mostly on the swaying haha
cello itself is pretty enough, anyhow sway also can
ahha
YO!!! cello was great!!!
thanks zm for the choc and the cards which you rephrased the meaning for everyone haha =) love you cello mummy!! we want milk!! we want milk!!
thanks junyan for the insane and loud shouting and actions from you haha and your choc.
everyone i swore was looking at you
haha
and shenghan for the YUYUN! whoo!
EDENUIS!!!! for your shouting!! whee!! though i cant hear you
so encouraging you all :)
NASCO just rock!!

haha
and we were crazy on the bus. :)
we lost the back seat though. ):

lao shi was like telling us play wrong also nvm. haha tehy dont know anyway
and if zouyin then pretend lor haha
wads next ah? after tapestry
aww


to cello parents: give us flowers next time ah!!!




hmm today wad kind of haha
i dont know
and we had a TALK after dazu!
haha
which lasted for about THREE WHOLE HOURS about randoms stuff
hmm know more about each other :D
and alot of othr irrelevant stuff
more tan bai to one another!!
hmm i want to be in the same class as liying!
but its impossible
sigh

quite honest la we all :D
talked about the peoplewedisliked in cello
haha
WE ALL HAD THE SAME PERSON IN MIND
haha

really.
its feels so nice to be super honest

super honest? bad sentece structure!
anyway
wegotpraised!!!
like WAHAHAHA
last week also!
okok not proud but glad la
and feel encouraged
really. it feels great
well probably cause we do not have sec ones in dazu while others have
and thus, we are like 'better'
but no good lah getting too much compliments.

one must go for greater heights!

haha and i even did a comparison like who gives me a sense of security.
ok, i shall elaborate.
when you are playing alone, you may be worrying about what paizi and the yinzhun all that. and even if you are right, you fear that you are wrong. when you play together, you feel very secured.
and then hor!!!
liying gives me sense of security? yes! but not too much. cause she is smaller in size haha
shumei gives me sense of security? yes! mor ethan liying as she will tell me whr i wrong and tell me how to improve and she is bigger in size than liying :D
huiyi lehh?? hmmm sadly, haha not much as with her like always very not serious haha. and when she daydreaming, as USUAL, the sense of security not too much. ah ha!! dont be sad:) you will fill in all the blanks one day
zengmei!!! ok she gives me the MOST SENSE OF SECURITY
as in, firstly, she is bigger in size ok, weird, size=security?
anyway she is the one when you feel sad or happy!!
aiyah she is just there for you lah.

yup like that. kind of
dont know what to say.
kind of afraid tomorrow
i might get anxious when i see the BIG CROWD below
like tht time cch one.
gosh i because i played wrongly at the cch one i am kind of having a 'phobia' kind of thing.
the aftermath. -.-
yaya stupid.
really afraid. lucky sit with shumei :) my sense of security heehee
and hope i can really play very well!!
feel stupid -.-
the mandala how come everyone play and learn so fast ah?
i learnt for like 3 days or one week i think? and i even played wrongly due to anxiousness -.- at the real performance the cch one.
am i really that stupid? gahh
learn things so slow.
even cried because cannot play mandala. how great.
how come now they learn so fast?!
why!!
i practiced the whole week for tapestry ok!
i am really very nu li lor.
GAHH
maybe not enough?
i dont know
i have sort of counted.
this week more than 20 hrs on practice
my leg muscles hurt.
sitting position too long.


jiayou! haha dont get anxious!
relax!


ok today was a mess.
wasted a day sleeping and wasting time.
did not finish my hw.
ben xiao jie dont feel like wor!
suddenly find the wor word damn funny
haha

anyway yesterday like everybody said WAS A MESS man
and cello was on the headlines!
cool~ haha
-.-

okay firstly
everybody wad lke shit can
izzit very scared? on stage?
then must relax.
play like nobody looking.
relax. then NOBODY SHOUT
damnit
wads with their problem la
normally at cd shelter everyone can shout mah
if scared throw face then lets dui lian together lor
that wad kymberly said
gosh i can like totally hear me and gracie's voice la
am so freaking angry.
DAMNIT
you liddat you tell me you want go perform
go die la
and the people ah
birng home prac will die meh?
WILL MEH?
i didnt know situation was so bad until a few wks ago the guo changsuo asked individually some people if they did prac at home
hello-o
got brains or not?
instruments are SO NOT for to bai mei at home can'?
just dont slack la
10 mins also got prac mah.
what shit attitude is all these la
i dare say i DID practice lor at home.
99% got prac if i brought it home

ok not like i very good or wad la
but i ENTHU mah
is my enthusiasm tht i am proud of and have a right to say people can!!


just shout,relax,reduce mistakes, sway, have feelings and THEREYOUGO
so hard meh?
do those people even try?
gosh. they'll be the death of me.
SHOUT LA COMEON

---endof screamingsession---

haha on the cello,
lalalala
huiyi was THEONE who said need bring instruments up? haha
dumb.
headline NUMBERONE

we lost meh meh yun OMG
OHMYGOSH
how can
who the hell la
the guy told us to put there
never tell us put ON THE LORRY lOR
then who knows when got ot school only got SIX
then i was like SHITSHITSHIT
its meh meh yun
my dear old meh meh yun
so worried about you okay!
though you are just a piece of freaking wood haha
all the cello put together how can miss out one!!
i was even thinking its maybe the unloading bay UNCLE who scolded us for 'blocking' the way go see the cello which one prettiest ---meh meh yun has the crown! =) then go burn or cut into pieces and come back with the ashes or corpse later
damnit
then dunno why dunno why
leimee appeared with it.

i was jumping like hell and grinning from ear to ear and pointing like haha at leimee's hands of cello!
haha
imweird
my reaction.
its just a piece of wood haha
GAGGA
no one can have my cello ah
NO.ONE

it is MINE FOREVER till it is reduced to wood ashes, it still is!!
anyway
later took bus with KYMBERLY! on THIRTYEIGHT
she's nice! the impression she always gave me
haha then like that. we were complaining about the shouting part. we were angry people!

then got to airport
to meet my sis
so throw face.
i scared the people might check me haha
for carrying a 'corpse' like wad that damn lavania said
gagaga
its a pretty thing=)
then walk around lalalala

lalalala
fetched by uncle and got home after my AH MA HOUSE
then today also fetched by auntie after HER HOUSE
ok have been fetched home so many times
i think i will die if no car.


:(
im kind of UNHAPPY!
mummy going china until wednesday :(
i was so bor chap these days la
didnt even bother.
afew hrs later she is FLYING!!!
i want to cry!!!
MOMMY!!


lalaala
haha

so old already.
stop it!

its a fine day :)


went out with rachel yesterday :)
super glad
not happy.
how to say ah. i dunno leh
i dont really enjoy the shopping experience because of the rain
but i really feel so-so comfortable with her leh.
as in she has been my BESTFRIEND since pri TWO
try beating that record of mine and hers! :P
then its like, even if you have a bestfriend in primary school lalala
wad wad very close and all that, in secondary school you will lost contact.
not really lost, as in got your number and email and stuff,
how often do you even talk and meet up?
feel so PROUD of myself :D

although we never conact or talk on msn, we dont feel very out of place or weird when we are together :D
the thing is.... pri 2-4 same class
but pri 5 onwards no.
believe it? GAHH
haha
even if people like since pri 2 to me with pri 6 also that tht close (:
hmm hope can be with her in jc perhaps?

i mean, its really nice to be with her.
humans all put on different masks.
but with her no need lor
no need to act or what.
even be myself can also be until damn happy.
though we just kept looking at the stuffs in shops and did not talk much. :D
cant believe it.
this year is the first time i see her -.-
how pathetic

and..... her purse got VERY FEW things!
but hor...
BUT HOR!!
got a 'friendship card' from me she still keep lor!!!
WHOO! its one of the VERY FEW things
i also!!! the card she gave me in my purse too!!
and the feathers ... haha the bird died. -.-
aww....
she is a great friend!!


GAHH
super irritated and disgusted by tht damn bus conductor in BUS SVENTY TWO
i HATE BLOODY FUCKING STRANGERS WHO COME AND KAJIAO MY SISTER!!
duh
though she is older and oh so good at dealing stuff and has a slurp! sharp tongue.
as in, she was once in a debate team :D
FEW MONTHS only due to the student ratio of
china students---> ALL
my sister--------> ONE
therefore she quitted
haha anyway she was forced to.

she's in the shooting team! BAMM!


anyway!
i need A proper holiday!
erm my chinese and my english my geography my tee designs my shopping
THE BOOKS I WANT TO READ.

this post is boring. forget it.


i have been cheated!!!

i went so early in the morning and even woke up at 7am -.-
i went school for the dunno wad co meeting
for like TWENTY MINUTES which i cant even hear what they talking as they were super soft.
and like that, the meeting was over.
i had nothing to do. no prac, and i went home
-.-
its takes me 1hr home to and fro school YOU KNOW!
i just like watse 2 hrs of my PRECIOUS LIFE
i could have stayed at home and save money for my DREAM
:O
hee heee
what can i do even if i stay at home? -.-
anyway,
i have been cheated!!!
CHEATED!
c-h-e-a-t-e-d!
RAHHH


Happy birthday zengzeng
haha
i dont think you will see but i sent you an sms already!
i just blog for the sake of blogging :D
thanks for being a GREAT friend and senior and my hao peng you! -.-
zengzeng shi liu da shou :D
stay a happy girl!!! and white too! SMILE!! haha and your soft and white cheek!
lala okok. you are nice.
hope the cactus dont die :P
if someone gives me a plant on my bday i will be happy and go nuts haha

nothing. just another boring day. though i went shopping.

i think i am gonna be sick
OHH

TEN YEARS LATER TO EGYPT!!
:DD

i want other places too.
better drag some tom dick harry to save money and go with me haha.


hmm
i have designs of cello tee and co tee in my magnificent brain WAHAHA
if i get hit by a car, HEHEHE. no designs!
teacher never say need co tee design yet but i design first in case any one of them nag and rush me again like the collar pin.
i SO REGRET anyhow draw the pin.
because i really hate ppl rushing me to do stuff lor.
although i am a perfectionist and would pass up things until perfection, they rush liddat i am super buay song la.
i really will anyhow draw like the pin.
damn it.
the thing i hate most is people rushing me!!!
GRRR
i am gonna bite!
and i realise i have been oh-so anti social recently haha
just dont feel like.
have to be more sociable la. SMILE! eeee :D
and people will friend you
-.-
what shit am i crapping.
like some despo for friends. -.-
no la, just have to have MORE friends.
aiyah more friends than more enemies right?
haha.

KAREN is always there for me!!
listen to me ramble :D
i think i like to complain but i will do things until i finish even if i hate it and keep complaining haha. comment from huiyi. SHE SAYS I AM A RESPONSIBLE PERSON!!
whoo haha.









ahh
my heart is throbbing -.-
very pain. i dunno why
deep breathe!
in and out!
lalala


alright. it is 8.28am now
i am awake.
woke up from a bad dream.
it is no ordinary bad dream. serious.
it is not a nightmare but a freaky one.
i have never came across such a dream before
i was so freaked out i woke up at 7.20am=.=
its like so .....enigma is the word.
so mysterious and like you know, dreams are normally related to your life or wad you have came across in the day.
but this is SO NOT
even when i am awake, i have never came across such bizarre things.
here goes

i was shopping along some shopping district in singapore
many many people and crowded like orchard
then opp the street was this dilapidated huge building
DILAPIDATED. note this.
then some workers were trying to put up HUGE samsung advertisements
and they were on these wires or smth like those things workers use to paint th building but this is to put up a samsung advertisement
and when someone in the street pointed to the building, i looked.
then i in a second i saw it in flames.
the building was in flames.
i was shocked and i tried to get back to wad i saw--ppl putting up advertisement
then the next moment, *TINK!* in a flash, i am IN THE BUILDING
the place had many empty cement rooms. then i walked in.
i seemed to be alone. then i saw two fat woman, in modern clothing to be quarrelling over smth.
they cant see me i guess. then i heard smth like from the next room, MUMMY!
then the next moment i was in the next room. then suddenly the room walls were with blood
fresh and dried blood on the wall for real.
then the next scene, *TINK!* it was a page from a story book.
it read

the girl screamed "mummy!"
the girl's old grandfather was with a bathtub. there was a pretty girl. her body was red and bloody. he kept scrubbing her hard and clean. she was so hideous that she couldnt be seen clearly her face. the tiles were with dried blood.
"where is mummy?"
"the next door. you wont get to see her for the next 8000 years"


(THE END OF MY FIRST DREAM) i tell you ah, i never HAD A NIGHTMARE BEFORE and i am like blogging it? GOSH. ok then the next moment, *TINK*
i am at the next dream.

got this malay uncle standing in front of the building just now, telling me, "thats the story."

then suddenly *TINK* i am at a storybook page again -.-
then it was a different story.
how should i describe this guy?
he wasnt human.
just a being. he looked scary. in 17 century clothing
like those vampire era.
then is ANGMOH 17 century clothing.
ANGMOH ah. note that.
he looked like an evil elf or smth. taller and bigger in size.
then he was telling me his story.
he looked young but he IS OLD. (typical freaky being story) ok then
then he kept grinning and seemed to be proud to tell me his story.
he seemed to be alive in the book.
then he go say
when he was young or smth, i cant rmb. it was a dream DUH
then he kept kena caught by the people of his church or smth.
then it was a PICTURE BOOK.
with a few sentences below the picture in the pages.
the pictures were big and colourful and just like any other storybook and the drawings and colouring were fantastic.
really. fantastic artwork.
then he was rebellious, often caught by members of his catholic? christian church?
i dont know
just a church..
it was dark and gloomy and like only got candles in the walkway (very old and 17th century indeed)
then they carried him in the olden times that kind of coffin design. like diamond shape one
but at the end is like flat one. then at the end of the coffin got a big hole, with bars to give him air and he was grinning and trying to get out.
then....SHIT I FORGOT WAD HAPPENED.
then aiyah after that he just like very proud of himself for being caught always and the people in his life all hated him
he was an orphan or smth.
i really cannot remember.
and at the end, he went like thanking me for listening to his story, about his life in the from the storybook. gosh he told his story life from the book.
and oh ya! the people seemed to have some evil magical black magic powers. i cannot remember really.
and at the end, he went like
"the next 8000 years. HEHEHE!" evily.
same as the first dream. eight thousand years.

the laughs weren't childish or wad leh. as in the evil laugh is like eleganty and classic one.

FREAKY OR NOT YOU TELL ME!
i cant sleep la!!



ok got to meet karen later on. at national library!
i woke up i cant sleep (of course la!) then i keep staring at the trees below my house and i READ NEWSPAPERS of TODAY
and i was sort of relieved i dont know
like more relieved and i felt that i was safe.

hi im yu yun!
catch the next cloud you see!
choc therapy!
capture the moment!
meh meh yun :D
toto toot :D
colours!

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