Saturday, June 28, 2008 @ 3:18 AM
today
hmm today wad kind of hahai dont knowand we had a TALK after dazu!hahawhich lasted for about THREE WHOLE HOURS about randoms stuffhmm know more about each other :Dand alot of othr irrelevant stuffmore tan bai to one another!!hmm i want to be in the same class as liying!but its impossiblesighquite honest la we all :Dtalked about the peoplewedisliked in cellohahaWE ALL HAD THE SAME PERSON IN MINDhahareally.its feels so nice to be super honestsuper honest? bad sentece structure!anywaywegotpraised!!!like WAHAHAHAlast week also!okok not proud but glad laand feel encouragedreally. it feels greatwell probably cause we do not have sec ones in dazu while others haveand thus, we are like 'better'but no good lah getting too much compliments.one must go for greater heights!haha and i even did a comparison like who gives me a sense of security.ok, i shall elaborate.when you are playing alone, you may be worrying about what paizi and the yinzhun all that. and even if you are right, you fear that you are wrong. when you play together, you feel very secured.and then hor!!!liying gives me sense of security? yes! but not too much. cause she is smaller in size haha shumei gives me sense of security? yes! mor ethan liying as she will tell me whr i wrong and tell me how to improve and she is bigger in size than liying :Dhuiyi lehh?? hmmm sadly, haha not much as with her like always very not serious haha. and when she daydreaming, as USUAL, the sense of security not too much. ah ha!! dont be sad:) you will fill in all the blanks one dayzengmei!!! ok she gives me the MOST SENSE OF SECURITYas in, firstly, she is bigger in size ok, weird, size=security?anyway she is the one when you feel sad or happy!!aiyah she is just there for you lah. yup like that. kind ofdont know what to say.kind of afraid tomorrowi might get anxious when i see the BIG CROWD belowlike tht time cch one.gosh i because i played wrongly at the cch one i am kind of having a 'phobia' kind of thing.the aftermath. -.-yaya stupid.really afraid. lucky sit with shumei :) my sense of security heeheeand hope i can really play very well!!feel stupid -.-the mandala how come everyone play and learn so fast ah?i learnt for like 3 days or one week i think? and i even played wrongly due to anxiousness -.- at the real performance the cch one.am i really that stupid? gahhlearn things so slow.even cried because cannot play mandala. how great.how come now they learn so fast?!why!!i practiced the whole week for tapestry ok!i am really very nu li lor.GAHHmaybe not enough?i dont knowi have sort of counted.this week more than 20 hrs on practicemy leg muscles hurt.sitting position too long.jiayou! haha dont get anxious!relax!
