i just broke you the day before yesterday.
threw you in the bin.
you have been with me for 3 years.
it was an accident.
you are a replacement of something.
now that you are gone, i almost have nothing left of you.
keep telling myself that you are just a cup.
but to me, you are just more and a cup, more than a ceramic cup.
because you are a substitute, without you, i have nothing left of him.
i am telling myself that you are just a cup. just an ordinary cup.
but there is this thorn in me that tells me, no, you are more than just a cup.
the soul is there.
the spirit is there.

you know i have grown taller?
you know i have graduated from primary school and now at secondary school?
you know what school i went to?
you know what cca i am in now?
i play cello in co you know? i love it.
i miss you ok?
i got injured yesterday. a cut on my chin, it bled. it hurt. i wanted you to paste the plaster on my chin for me.
you know there's a new addition to the singapore skyline?
its called the singapore flyer
we can see it from the lift lobby.
you know? the view is really great.
we are having new mrt lines a few years later.
the lift at granny's house have been hacked. a new one is being built.
you know?
you know singapore is hosting the youth olympics in 2012?
i dont have much pictures of you.
how?
i cant seem to remember your voice any more.
i yearn to look at you and hear your voice.
i am afraid if i am older, i might forget.
i dont want.
can you come into my dreams?
i really treat as if you are still by my side.
i believe you are still around me, watching me.
i may appear to not bother about your presence but i do.
i just dont show it.
i try to put you behind my mind.
you are kept deep in my heart.
locked.
i want see you.
i am jealous.
why did you leave me.
i am sorry. i was the one who......
its all my fault.
if not for me, all of these would not have happened.

i miss you ....











hope fiesta is fine
my results are good.
i want to grow even taller! i want to be of the same height as you!
i want to be happy.
forget about everything and i want you.
can you come back?


i have realised that every sunday is kind of a 'self-realising' day
cause
i am too beat to get out of the house.
mon-fri SCHOOL DAYS
sat-co and go granny house and the day is over
sun- TODAY! sleeping day. rest rest rest. so i rarely go out -.-
how sad.
had a weird dream or what. in this garden, very pretty and REALLY GREEN no flowers. just green with loads of leaves and vines over your heads and trees
then got a few grown ups walking about. cant remember but go this weird evil woman trying to do harm to the garden -.-
how stupid. cannot remember

i want to tavel.
i want to.
not much chance luh. to hongkong
cello so many people applying
it'll be great if all seven of us can go.
but the thing is, chances are slim for ME to go.
so sad.
hmm
i really want to go ok!
genting is better as everybody can go! it'll be really nice.
i like it when we are all together instead of being seperated.
like shumei and catherine
huijie and gracie
and the three of us.
now seriously, huiyi and liying are always together.
i feel extra ok? its not their fault.
nobody's fault.
its just like tht.
why cant we just stay together? if we were, we have 'moqi' and play together.
thts really nice.
but this is my own ideas. hmm

i suck seriously.
i suck.
delay so many stuff.
now got the i and e thing.
phew!
hope my group can really stand by each other lor.
being so childish like to talk bad about each other and complaining to me the leader.
i dont want to be.
never mind
i suck on cme and vl lesson lor.
like even spouted vulgarities while presenting -.-
and tht ah peh aiyah so quiet. dont want help me.
lucky never scold me when i said MA DE! -.-
haha

and the sc stuff... ok nvm
our class, i really like it.
dont want say le.

shouldnt have said those stuff to sh ):

i have got it worked out.
i have to start saving and grab every opportunity to travel if i want to
GO ROUND THE WORLD,
every street and alley must have my footsteps
i have mentioned this alot.
and then, i not young le lor
thirteen going on fourteen
and must start from young!
and the money....hmmm
really, have to save from now.
i bet the prices of stuff are going to soar.

my preparations of fulfilling my dream
nono. not dream. something i HAVE to do.
dont just think and do nothing people!
start planning on how to achieve it haha.
dont know will work or not.


well i got tons of stuff to do...
like erm my zuo wen
i think i'll write tht tapestry one
since got nothing to write about my troubles tht topic(some aint to be shared by teachers!)
ok set! my zuowen
i realised tht the more peculiar and more interesting and more uncommon your zuowen is, the more marks you get =D haha but just dont go too far till you out of point

anyway anyway
hmmm hmmm hmmm
dunno how. my cello at jabrina house
maybe tues not free
so paiseh
her house leh
cello so big
block way haha
damn sorry

anyway anyway
today was kind of boring!
i wanna go travel!
whee!!

i need to get top 3 in class to get my contact lens -.-
tht is purely blackmailing little kids lor mummy!
gah gah gah
sian!

this post is so so so (meaningless)

hmmm
going to move classroom i guess.
going to leave my neighbours at 3rd level (zm and hy)
hai
so saddening!
hope they delay haha
then can more time with them! and the HELLOS! at zm's window
aww. will miss her when she is gone.


been reading the stephenie meyer books recently
hehe
now at new moon
yea. super slow. no interest in it in the first place as i dont understand why girls are so so captured by the edward in the story -.-
ok. then i think ehh got motion pictures coming tht means damn cool lah
haha
then i read lor.
now in the middle parts of new moon= no edward -.-
damn sian
i practically scanned through the chapters okay!
i am those who like spoilers haha
and friday was a real bad day
damn it.
stuck at the stupid leonard tan talking session okay!
then when i was supposed to be at the co one
always clash
sian ok!
and when i went back, i dont know which idiot locked my bag and my SUPER BIG ah mei to the power of five in it
shrouded in darkness damn it!
found lei mee and she helped me
i think she like me lor! WAHAHA! :P:P
thts good lor
cause i dont like her haha
and she heard me calling her lei mee
i didnt see her coming lor!
i am dead
so so dead.

anyway
dont want to say anymore
these days I DONT LIKE!

i want go travel!
please please. bless me with MONEY! then i go travel round the world on my own HAHA (clearly impossible)

i am thinking of a mass dance on the party
tht means must choose song and create a dance
idea i think good leh haha
but it takes some time though
and people to participate


haha this post is called......... prince froggie!
from tht super cute frog cum bag haha
whoo!
so excited haha gonna bring it one dazu on sat.
today outing with my dearest CO PEOPLE!
was super fun!
haha
cause recently i quite fan with some things
HEHE
actually wanted to go home with shenghan one
but met them so go IKEA with them
gosh then me and claire and juline and yiliang were slacking around and camwhore around the display rooms like some 'happy family' haha
zilian is in the air!
gosh these two days dunno take how many pics already haha
WAHAHA
damn fun haha
gonna snatch those pics from claire!

and then weibin and stephy and eric joined
but eric went after a teeny little while.
then haha
then we were PLAYING!
got this damn ah neh couple
keep pointing at us
then we just like tht lor
then after we paid for our FROGS
they were quarrelling with the IKEA workers
the ah neh couple
HOW COULD THEY
we thought wad happened
tht ah neh guy was DAMN LOUD
the entire dua IKEA building can hea rlor
haha ok not so exaggerated
then he was pointing madly at us
then aftwards the workers come and say what they complain tht we were noisy, nobody stop us lallaa run here run there
HELLO! your description abit too what lor
as if we are ignorant pri school kids
and then damn it
hAHA
anyway they were entertaining enough whoo!
HEEHEE
and i went home lala
quite late hor!
now 8+

JUST TO SUMMARISE A LITTLE!


wheee!! cool right?!

me and tht ding dong belle!

today was sort of a 'thinking' session for myself

i thought about lots of things

haha but i have this thinking session everyday on tht long 72 ride home

thus.... resulting a MATURE ME! WAHAHA

anyway anyway

haha the pictures we took at foodcourt
hmm.
quite disappointed in laypeng.
to say the truth, i totally object to it and i am very against it.
but it is her life, none of my business haha
bu zai hu tian chang di jiu
zhi zai hu ceng jing yong you
we wont be friends forever right?
those are a pack of lies tht naive earthlings say.
but it is just that we were once friends
gosh. what am i saying haha
quite excited!
tmr we got cello pictures!!
whoo!
hmm well :/ i dont know
i take back my words about hating co.
tht day was yi shi qi hua
totally angry
better impression of co le
very glad that i say leimee say my art was pretty
love it!


ok
listen here. this is uber cool.
haha
i wanna get myself involved in these rich culture and cool
history!

mardi gras
The history of the Venetian Mask is one which sounds as though it stems from fairytale or legend but which goes to show that sometimes truth is stranger than fiction.
Way back in the 13th Century, Venice was more than just a small city in Italy. It was a very important part of Italy and was known by the name of the Venetian Republic. This Republic was small, with a population in the region of 150,000 people. Nonetheless, the Republic had a very successful trade, which was ship building, and was able to produce one battleship in as little as thirty days. This was a very fast turnaround, made possible by the fact that the shipyards employed 15,000 of the local residents, a staggering ten per cent of the state's overall population. In addition to the shipyards, the Venetian Republic required workforces in all other aspects of daily life. The Republic was a well oiled machine which functioned smoothly and well and this meant that the citizens of the Venetian Republic were wealthy and successful. This wealth, luxury and extravagance, coupled with the beauty of the state, made the Republic very appealing to the rest of the world.
It was this wealth that was to bring about the tradition of the Venetian mask. Over time, the citizens of the Venetian Republic began to realise that if they concealed their identity they became able to carry out their daily lives in secrecy and without fear of retribution. With so much personal wealth in the state, people often found themselves making deals and agreements with other citizens outside of the eyes of the law. With the population as small as it was, many wanted to carry out such deals as these without other people knowing their business, and so the wearing of a mask became popular.
Once people began to see others wearing masks, it became apparent that they could hold additional benefits. When wearing a mask your identity is concealed and so your social status is not known to others. This allowed servants and business owners to be treated equally and prevented any form of inequality or prejudice. It also allowed all of the citizens of the Republic to have their say on matters which were important to them, allowing them to remain anonymous in the process. This was mutually beneficial to both the citizens and officials visiting the city, who were able to receive honest answers to their questions from the whole spectrum of residents. Soon, all of the city's residents were wearing masks to go about their daily lives.
This mutual benefit for all of wearing masks was not to last long though. It did not take long for people to start to take advantage of the concealment of their identity and to benefit from their anonymity. Knowing that there were to be no repercussions of their actions, as no-one could be identified, the society began to behave more lavishly and without fear. As a busy city with travellers and business visitors descending upon them daily, sexual promiscuity became common place and gambling was known to be occurring all through the day and the night, all over the city. In fact, gambling was even occurring in convents and was undertaken by men, women and even children. Homosexuality was starting to spread throughout the Republic and was not condemned there as it was in the rest of the country. Women were able to flaunt their sexuality in revealing clothing and engaged in promiscuous behaviour. Even those who had taken religious vows, such as monks and nuns, were undertaking the same activities as the rest of the population, wearing fashionable outfits, gambling and prostituting themselves.
The capital of Italy, Rome, knew about the activities which were occurring in the Venetian Republic but for some time chose to ignore them as long as the Republic was continuing to make regular and substantial financial deposits. However, a decision was finally reached to ban the wearing of masks throughout the majority of the year, only permitting it in a three month period from the 26th December onwards. Over time this has been gradually lessened and is now more commonly associated with week long festivities known as Carnevale, or Mardi Gras.


egypt ah egypt!! haha ten years later. WHOO!
hope you guys wont forget me by then! :/



today was kind of a bad day.
loads of things pissed me off.
super BU SHUANG!
...
but all these problems are long term one.
not just pissed off la.
there's nothing i can do anyway.
helpless.
wanted to yell okay
but just SUPPRESSED IT.
haha is this the so-called stress?
haha
ihave been wearing super gorgeous masks can
pretend and pretend. people fall for it.
recently been questioning myself
do i really suck in art?
gosh.

let me count
how many things pissed me off today

ONE.
those damn gu niang girls. the sun doesnt kill. get real.
TWO.
stop lying la. it is really sick. having proper lesssons are fine. skipping a meal wont kill
THREE.
be punctual alright? just dont want to scold you guys lor. i am really angry. not punctual, dont come instead. quit la. we dont need uninterested ones.
FOUR.
dont act so close and as if you understand me so much. you really make me puke. you are not really my friend. if not for the .... circumstances, you will never be my friend in school.
FIVE.
your mind isnt composed of great genuis genes alright. stop it. show some respect hey.
SIX.
stop strolling in. your eyeballs cant see? the school compound is filled with air. everybody is gone. dont waste time. be AWARE of your surroundings. still stroll in slowly. and YOU! i dont care the fucking hell whether your bf help you carry or what. FASTER you freaking shithole. still there slowly stroll in, shake here shake there. ya la ya la your hair VERY PRETTY okok. FASTER. you really disgust me

whatever.
ranted at huiyi. i am fine now =)
haha
cant stand it.
especially our section. to say the truth, hearing praises of what oh you guys were awesome, you played great... yea yea.
you dont see the BIG HUMONGOUS picture.
oh-so superly segregated like little particles of dunno what. you guys just dont see.
its damn pitiful.
so what if you played great? it means nothing.
total nothingness.
if you arent stickin together, it means nothing.
i'll rather play BADLY but are very close okay
i would love to play badly for that.

guess what?
i thing i loved so much-co
i hate it now.
i hate it
how?

i hate it.
i hate it.
i hate it.
i hate it.
i hate it.
i hate it.

i hate the Chinese Orchestra.
ok?
get it?
i hate it.
IT disgust me so much.

time to put on my gorgeous mask again!
smile. smile.


rah rah rah
now lots of things to do.
dont know where to start. grrr
abit sick.
dont want do all.


i am sick of editting those NEW links
i dont care :P
haha
its really very ma fan to especially to the template and edit the links people had
i dont care
who ask you guys have such LONG urls
wait till i am in the mood to.
about the party, i really NO IDEA
about the theme
no matter how what, there will still be critisms yes, DUH obvious
and the THEME!!
i want a save earth theme lor
haha
tht will get too personal
theme theme theme
it has to be fun and interactive and engaging and lah lah lah

hmmmm
hmmmm
HMMMMM!!

milk.
suddenly i want milk.
milk.
milk.
milk.


oh oh and i suddenly have many many books to read HAHA


hmm..
im gonna go into the BOOK MODE!
suddenly feel like reading those thick thick books and finish it and think i very smart haha
anyway i suck lah.
my grades really dropped.
now must step up!
all the fun is over DUH!
i have to go home early now.
i have to stop going for self prac.
i have to go home for afternoon nap to catch up on sleep!
i have to stop going places that i often go after school like
err, the swing? the library? haha and esplanade!
whoo!
not that often lah
just like that.
i was mugging the 2nd semester last year.
1st semester now i realise i have been studying too much. i started to slack and find the REAL ME!
now 2nd semester must mug again!!
mug mug mug
miss out alot of things i guess.
just for those A1s? just for those top positions?
damn.
singapore is just like that. all about achieving.
recently that arrogant coelho sort of let me find and think about
what kind of person am i
i think very long lor
i dont know
shit. how to do art. i dunno myself
i realise, people have been saying that art is the thing you can find and show your true self
bullshit leh i think
even if i super sad, when i go 'arting' i will still use bright colours haha

anyway
my goal:
is to find myself ( idunno how)
promote
stopping of global warming and climate change(my very little part)
stop wasting food and money, get shallow singaporeans to realise poverty in other countries
hmmm
people to change for a positive perspective of art.

currently all these la
i think hor
laypeng, my current target(HEHE) is succeeding
that day cereal day i was telling her all those things
then she as usual (DONTCAREME)
then got geog
she saw those sad pictures of people living in slumps, eating rubbish
she very sad
SEE! my first target succeedING
singaporeans just dont see the big picture
what they see, what their eyes feed them is pretty trees, shiok aircons, fun, play all those
but if they see those other countries, they then will realise the truth can
all these years of nagging by the government they turn a deaf ear.
they just do not realise.

recently the miss lim showed us this LETTER IN 2070
gosh it really, i think, can change one's opinion
it is a ppt, depicting life in 2070
life, without WATER
damn, if only the entire world gets to see this ppt

haha

i sound as if like i very ambitious and very like dreaming or think that i am capable or what haha
but just want to promote all these la.

i think all these are like SO ESSENTIAL
get people to see big picture tht they do not see.

SEE!

hi im yu yun!
catch the next cloud you see!
choc therapy!
capture the moment!
meh meh yun :D
toto toot :D
colours!

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