crayons above!

Friday, July 11, 2008 @ 6:30 AM

bad day

today was kind of a bad day.
loads of things pissed me off.
super BU SHUANG!
...
but all these problems are long term one.
not just pissed off la.
there's nothing i can do anyway.
helpless.
wanted to yell okay
but just SUPPRESSED IT.
haha is this the so-called stress?
haha
ihave been wearing super gorgeous masks can
pretend and pretend. people fall for it.
recently been questioning myself
do i really suck in art?
gosh.

let me count
how many things pissed me off today

ONE.
those damn gu niang girls. the sun doesnt kill. get real.
TWO.
stop lying la. it is really sick. having proper lesssons are fine. skipping a meal wont kill
THREE.
be punctual alright? just dont want to scold you guys lor. i am really angry. not punctual, dont come instead. quit la. we dont need uninterested ones.
FOUR.
dont act so close and as if you understand me so much. you really make me puke. you are not really my friend. if not for the .... circumstances, you will never be my friend in school.
FIVE.
your mind isnt composed of great genuis genes alright. stop it. show some respect hey.
SIX.
stop strolling in. your eyeballs cant see? the school compound is filled with air. everybody is gone. dont waste time. be AWARE of your surroundings. still stroll in slowly. and YOU! i dont care the fucking hell whether your bf help you carry or what. FASTER you freaking shithole. still there slowly stroll in, shake here shake there. ya la ya la your hair VERY PRETTY okok. FASTER. you really disgust me

whatever.
ranted at huiyi. i am fine now =)
haha
cant stand it.
especially our section. to say the truth, hearing praises of what oh you guys were awesome, you played great... yea yea.
you dont see the BIG HUMONGOUS picture.
oh-so superly segregated like little particles of dunno what. you guys just dont see.
its damn pitiful.
so what if you played great? it means nothing.
total nothingness.
if you arent stickin together, it means nothing.
i'll rather play BADLY but are very close okay
i would love to play badly for that.

guess what?
i thing i loved so much-co
i hate it now.
i hate it
how?

i hate it.
i hate it.
i hate it.
i hate it.
i hate it.
i hate it.

i hate the Chinese Orchestra.
ok?
get it?
i hate it.
IT disgust me so much.

time to put on my gorgeous mask again!
smile. smile.