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Thursday, July 31, 2008 @ 5:38 AM

i just broke you the day before yesterday.
threw you in the bin.
you have been with me for 3 years.
it was an accident.
you are a replacement of something.
now that you are gone, i almost have nothing left of you.
keep telling myself that you are just a cup.
but to me, you are just more and a cup, more than a ceramic cup.
because you are a substitute, without you, i have nothing left of him.
i am telling myself that you are just a cup. just an ordinary cup.
but there is this thorn in me that tells me, no, you are more than just a cup.
the soul is there.
the spirit is there.

you know i have grown taller?
you know i have graduated from primary school and now at secondary school?
you know what school i went to?
you know what cca i am in now?
i play cello in co you know? i love it.
i miss you ok?
i got injured yesterday. a cut on my chin, it bled. it hurt. i wanted you to paste the plaster on my chin for me.
you know there's a new addition to the singapore skyline?
its called the singapore flyer
we can see it from the lift lobby.
you know? the view is really great.
we are having new mrt lines a few years later.
the lift at granny's house have been hacked. a new one is being built.
you know?
you know singapore is hosting the youth olympics in 2012?
i dont have much pictures of you.
how?
i cant seem to remember your voice any more.
i yearn to look at you and hear your voice.
i am afraid if i am older, i might forget.
i dont want.
can you come into my dreams?
i really treat as if you are still by my side.
i believe you are still around me, watching me.
i may appear to not bother about your presence but i do.
i just dont show it.
i try to put you behind my mind.
you are kept deep in my heart.
locked.
i want see you.
i am jealous.
why did you leave me.
i am sorry. i was the one who......
its all my fault.
if not for me, all of these would not have happened.

i miss you ....

hope fiesta is fine
my results are good.
i want to grow even taller! i want to be of the same height as you!
i want to be happy.
forget about everything and i want you.
can you come back?